Saturday, September 6, 2008
My life ll 10:01 PM ll
Hi my name is jason. This is first time i try blogging. haha. Now i going to tell you all how my life is like. I just broke up with my girlfriend and now my life is like so sux and sad. i really love her, i felt like she betray me sia. she is in poly and i am studying in secondary school. she now have a new boyfriend. we break like only for 2 week and she have a new boyfriend liao. her new boyfriend is last time her friend sia. she got told me she will like him but i got told her not to stay close to him liao but she just took my word for granted. she say i never give it a damn. ya ya everything is my fault. i felt that she is so easily tempted. I realise that our relationship is so fragile and could not withstand any test. i don't know want to hate her or how man. I admit sometime i may be lazy i got flirt other girl but eventually she is still the one love. people will sure make mistake one right. nobody is prefect in this world. she and i had went to alot of things and she can just forget so fast just like this. she is the first girl i bring home to show my parent , she is the first person first girl who bring me to alot of place like esplanade. she really can forget it. our relationship has already went through for 1 year plus going hit 2 years. everything she say seem to be like bullshit. i bet she comfirm forget what she say to me. she say we will stay together forever and stuff and now she leave me just like this. i never thought she will ever leave me and now i am all alone. she got stay at my house before , seen my whole family before , how can i possibly forget about her. my heart really hurt. really really hurt. her look , her every little action is still in my mind. i am going crazy man. people hit me punch me i will not cry but this thing i could not control myself at all. the tears will automatically drop itself. i think i will hate her forever. feel like scolding her and find her new boyfriend problem sia but later i realise that there is no point in doing this. she will not return to me or what. are all girl so easily tempted? from this relationship i learn to be not to serious in it. i should love myself more. i am sad because she betray my trust in her. haiz everything really happen for a reason i think. i have done so much sacrifices for her she can also forget..... am i worth being treated like this. i only wan to love someone and that person will love me also. how can i overcome her man. she is my source of power to do thing man. she leave me just like this and now i have no target at all. my hope is gone... my power is all gone... worse of all my o lvl is coming , with this kind of mood how can i study hard man. i will still try my best because i don't think it is worth it. why can't she be more understanding. i having o lvl man how to often pei her all the time. she also don't like me to go to the gym but she like fit boyfriend. without going to the gym how to be fit man. i have to maintain alot of stuff man. i got so much thing to do. going gym is also hard work alright. body also need to maintain one ma. i just want to be e best boyfriend and show her friend i am the best the prefect boyfriend. after my exam i can pei her all the time liao. why can't she just wait awhile more. its like only for 1 more month plus. why sia. she really hurt me alot. i think i need a long time in order to forget about her. i think i now very scare to have relationship. are girl all so cruel? she is now enjoying other guy love and i am all left alone in one area... i could not sleep sia , i have to make myself very tired in order to sleep. i don't know why now a days i tend to wake up very early. i could not sleep back again once i woke up. she always say that i don't understand anything at all but she understand what i am thinking ma. how can i survive? will i be able to carry on my life? i know she is not worth it at all but i truely love her. does love really exist? i am damn sad. she will never know what i am going through now. alice lee mei bao i still love you so deeply. must stay happy ok. i think i have no choice but to act as if i don't know you and i love wrong. i will try my best to forget her although i know it is impossible. I LOVE YOU sia. why treat me like this. my tears keep droping till now. whoever look at this blog remember must cherish your love one alright.
